Big Day Tomorrow

Tomorrow’s the big day! Finally time time for my surgery. I’ve stressed myself up so much now I’m calm and just ready for this to be over. Ready to start the recovery process and healing this ankle.

Finals

Finals are killing me. I hate the end of the semester because of finals. I had to write a 10 page paper, revise a story, study for a final exam, and remember all the signs I've learned in ASL for our final exam. It's going to be a long few days.

Pre-Surgery Thoughts

With the pain I’m in right now, I’m so ready for surgery now. The nerves are at a minimum now and I’m ready for the surgery to be over and on to the recovery process. I just keep reminding myself that a year from now I’ll be able to walk and run and sit with no pain (fingers-crossed) so it’ll be all worth it. I’m getting anxious and impatient. I’m ready for it to be April 30th.

Faith

I was watching TV and I heard something that resonated with me. It was a show where this preacher was talking and she said if your relationship isn’t right with God then it’ll mess with all your other relationships and it’s true. Whenever I was doubting God or lamenting why I was in a certain situation and God wasn’t doing what I thought he should do my relationships with others suffered. I wasn't as nice or trusting as I should have been. You have to make sure you keep your relationship with God right because it’s the one you need the most. Being able to talk to Him and believe in him is something that I think everyone needs. It gives you a sense of comfort and trust that you wouldn’t have if you don’t have that relationship.

Just Some Thoughts

So I called the doctor’s office to confirm the recovery process after my surgery. Because…well that’s just me. That’s just how I am. I like to know every step and process so that I’m less nervous.
Anyway, the nurse told me that I’ll be in a cast for two weeks then non-weight bearing in a boot for four weeks. I’ll have to wear the boot all the time even when I sleep, which to me sucks. After six weeks of minimal weight-bearing or moving around much I’ll start physical therapy.

End of Semester Stress

The end of the semester is always stressful for me. No matter how prepared I am I still get nervous and stressed out. I think it’s the feeling of everything is due and it gets so intense because you have test and assignments are due plus you know finals are coming up. I’m trying to remember to take deep breaths and not panic too much but it’s not easy.

It's Official

I went to the doctor in the beginning of this month and it’s now official: I need surgery and am going forward with it. I have scheduled my surgery for April 30th. I am really nervous about it because I’ve had surgery on the same ankle before and worry about it not being necessary like the other one. But the constant pain and inability to do anything lets me know that something is seriously wrong with my ankle. Six years of pain is enough. I have to do this surgery and hope and pray that everything turns out okay.

Pain, Pain Go Away and Don’t Come Back Another day

I’ve been dealing with ankle pain for SIX years and I’m getting tired of it. I went to lunch with a friend yesterday then went to this performance for my ASL class and I am paying for it today. My ankles been killing me today. I decided to wash the little dishes in the kitchen and that was a big mistake. I just want to be able to do want to do the normal things. I’m trusting in God that this next surgery is the one that gets me pain free. Fingers crossed.